Public Speaking

so last night was our athletic banquet and i had to speak in front of football players, teachers, coaches, parents and my peers. I was so nervous i could of puked. Before I public speak I cannot eat anything, like whole day but afterwards I eat everything, also i get butterflies and i get red and i can feel my heartbeat pulsing everywhere.
How do you deal with your nerves?

my life..boring

I don't know about you guys but I have had a pretty sad, busy and exhausting weekend. Well I was pretty much tired from the whole week and on top of that I am sick. I have some virus that the doctor says doesnt have a name yet and there is no medicine for it. Well the symptoms are like constant migrane, upset stomach, aches and pains...and it sucks, I have had a migrane for two weeks! Sometimes it is stronger than other times but two weeks seems like forever when your in pain. Friday I went out to eat with my parents becasue they are leaving for a week to go to Colorado together. They never go away together so that is nice. Then I went tanning at Malibu tanning. You HAVE to go there! It has been free for like two weeks. You can go free there until the 21st. I love it there it feels like I am in Florida. Then I hung out with josh and made him watch "A walk to remember"...sad. Then I came home and passes out for like 20 minutes and went to Danielle Longs to hang with her and Juli. Then I went to mcdonalds at like 12:30 am cuz I was going to get into joshs car and scare him when he got out of work, but i was too late so we went to walmart to get some energy drinks for the game the next day and there was this annoying gay guy taking FOREVER to check out people, I guess he figured we dont have anything important to do at 1:30 am. So then I FINALLY got home to sleep and I woke up and got on the charter bus to go to Vicksberg and we lost so i cried because it was my last football game ever to cheer for :'( and then I went home with my fam, josh, and my gpa and gma, and we went out to eat at lonestar and then i hung out with josh and went home to sleep in my amazing bed because i was tired. Then I woke up and raked leaves for NHS and then I came home to clean the whole house because my mom wants it clean before she leaves and now we are done and i am doing my homework and it is going to take me until 12:30 to do it. *sigh* i guess that is my life.

I know who my REAL friends are

So it happend again...another friend gone. I don't know why this is happening to me, I have never been betrayed like this by my friends my whole life. If i did something wrong then I would totally understand...but I didn't even know about this person being mad at me and i guess it has been going on for weeks!! I thought this friend was avoiding me but I didn't really think anything of it. Then somebody says something about **** being mad at me and I was like "**** who? **** is mad at me?" I love how people are mad at me and don't even have the courage to confront me about it. The messed up thing about it is that **** just said during homecoming that i was one of their best friends. Well i figured out why this person is mad at me and it is a TOTAL LIE. I don't even know how it came up...there is no way that this happened, it couldn't even be a misunderstanding. I don't know why someone who i thought was such a good friend could go behind my back and tell people that I did something, and make up stuff about it. Wow what a true friend.

At least i have 3 absolute true friends: Juli, Danielle and Josh